ProfessorMoriarty86

Walking alone, thinking of home suddenly it all feels wrong I was just so happy and free now I’m drowning in this sea of dark, unyielding apathy shifted my reality Happiness is fading fast memories slip from my grasp cold breath sucking at my soul will I ever again be whole? All the light in the world is gone everything’s so cold and numb despair cuts straight to the core like nothing is worth living for There’s no more future, no tomorrow no more joy, only sorrow Happiness is fading fast memories slip from my grasp cold breath sucking at my soul Will I ever again be whole? Happiness fading fast memories slip from my gra

There was a dark cloud that followed me around Like an unwanted shadow I just couldn't shake Relentlessly he stalked me and dragged me down After years of torment it seemed I had escaped I spent three glorious years living without fear of the dangerous emergence of my mental reaper Little did I know he has always been here Biding his time, waiting to sink his claws in deeper I don't know when he decided to rear his ugly face He intricately embedded himself in my mind I really thought the darkness had finally been erased But I've succumb to it once more- I'm starting to unwind I can't stop thinking, inside I'm screaming I'm so unhappy it hu

The bright light of day may give you a fright If you have been living in the black, empty night Now out of the dark and into the light And shoved headfirst into the fight It's going to be hard, scary, and rough You're going to think that you've had enough Every day is a struggle, every day is a grind But if you push through you just might find That though this life is fraught with pain You give and you give but don't see the gain The gain had been staring you in the face And the worth is weaved in the fabric of days Every small smile and every kind word Every friend, every laugh, that's your reward Every memory you cherish can become a blade

It's been so long since I felt your arms around me A whole year's gone by but it still feels like I'm drowning Not a day has gone by that you haven't crossed my mind I'd still stop the world for you at the drop of a dime I know you've moved on but I need you to know I'll always love you, I just can't let you go Thought I had it all under control But when I see those blue eyes All resistance just dies Don't act so surprised That I'm still mesmerized By those blue eyes. I've tried letting go of everything that I feel You moved on so fast, it was so surreal Now I'm not holding your hand walking down the street I'm not the last voice you hear

Not a single day goes by I don't think of those blue eyes I wonder if you're doing okay I'm sure you are just fine. Did you move a million miles away To escape a life despised? Or was it just the next step To a new adventure, a new life? Do you ever think of me When the lights go out at night? Do you wonder what I'm doing? Or if I am alright? And if you do, I wonder Does the light change in your eyes? I wonder if you know I think about you all the time. I hope you find true happiness, good health and real love. I hope if you hit rough patches You'll find the strength to rise above. I hope you haven't lost that fire That intense passion for

I can't seem to find a substance to scratch this incessant itch And no matter where I look I just can't find my niche Not one place where I fit in and don't end up alone. Maybe I'm forever searching for an abandoned home The same one I lost so long ago. Sometimes I wish I were never born -- As cliche as it seems Maybe one day I'll wake up and this life will be a dream. This bothersome dark cloud blinds all I once could see. I don't know where I'm going but I know where I want to be. I feel like such a burden -- a perpetual pest. My outer shell is collected and calm -- no one would ever guess That inside I'm nothing but a festering hot mess.

You and I could have been great But you gave up on me and developed such hate- For me, for you, for everything we had Now you can't think of "us" without getting mad It hurt me so much because I truly cared I wasn't understanding because I wasn't prepared For the low blows and such emotional pain And for how very swiftly your heart seemed to change I hoped in the future we could be friends But I know now our last "goodbye" was our end We can't go back after all that transpired- The never-ending heartache, the words laced with fire And no matter how much we forgive, we can't forget These things that we've kept in the back of our heads We both